Can I just leave the house just like that? To them, I'm just like a trash to the family. Not worth of a single cent. They can just scold me, beat me when ever they like even when I did nothing wrong. Does this means that the smallest in the family is trash? They will just listen to the eldest and scold the youngest, even when the youngest did nothing wrong. They even scold when the youngest do what they say. They will not like what you do, what you say. They normally says that being the youngest in the family is the best. But this doesn't apply to my family. I'm always the one who got scoldings even when I did nothing. Is this the way it's going to be like forever? Not working staying at home everyday also get scolding. Not staying at home everyday also get scoldings. Even ask how to enrol for my course also got scoldings. I really don't understand. Don't understand a single thing. You asked me to ask them if I don't understand. I asked them nicely, they gave a attitude. I gave them attitude back, you scold me. I don't understand why. I followed what you say and asked them nicely, but in return I got back fcuking attitude and scoldings. Even when my eye is swollen now I want to see a doctor, you also listen to what she says that no need to see a doctor cause it's a minor thing. Wth is this? HELLO!!! My eye is not important is it? Luckily, I pay a visit to the clinic and the doctor says that it's eye infection. If I have listened to you, I might have gone blind without knowing why I gone blind. I somehow can't take it anymore, feel so stress and fcuk up now. No one is by my side. No one! Even him. I thought I could see him today. But...it's gone. I shouldn't have let myself to believe him or believe anyone. I have learnt a lesson, the more I believe in someone I care for, the more I will be hurt. So now, I will not believe in anyone I care for that much anymore. I don't want to get hurt again and again, the pain will just get doubled when I get hurt each time......

Can I just leave the house just like that? To them, I'm just like a trash to the family. Not worth of a single cent. They can just scold me, beat me when ever they like even when I did nothing wrong. Does this means that the smallest in the family is trash? They will just listen to the eldest and scold the youngest, even when the youngest did nothing wrong. They even scold when the youngest do what they say. They will not like what you do, what you say. They normally says that being the youngest in the family is the best. But this doesn't apply to my family. I'm always the one who got scoldings even when I did nothing. Is this the way it's going to be like forever? Not working staying at home everyday also get scolding. Not staying at home everyday also get scoldings. Even ask how to enrol for my course also got scoldings. I really don't understand. Don't understand a single thing. You asked me to ask them if I don't understand. I asked them nicely, they gave a attitude. I gave them attitude back, you scold me. I don't understand why. I followed what you say and asked them nicely, but in return I got back fcuking attitude and scoldings. Even when my eye is swollen now I want to see a doctor, you also listen to what she says that no need to see a doctor cause it's a minor thing. Wth is this? HELLO!!! My eye is not important is it? Luckily, I pay a visit to the clinic and the doctor says that it's eye infection. If I have listened to you, I might have gone blind without knowing why I gone blind. I somehow can't take it anymore, feel so stress and fcuk up now. No one is by my side. No one! Even him. I thought I could see him today. But...it's gone. I shouldn't have let myself to believe him or believe anyone. I have learnt a lesson, the more I believe in someone I care for, the more I will be hurt. So now, I will not believe in anyone I care for that much anymore. I don't want to get hurt again and again, the pain will just get doubled when I get hurt each time......