I've really made up my mind. I should just initiate to end all these. No matter how much I try to talk peacefully with you. You will just ended up shouting and quarreling with me. We're always quarreling over the same old matter, whether is it Zhixian or you didn't reply my text. Same old thing. You never put yourself in my shoes that I'm worried. Maybe you won't care anymore, because to you, I'm only a friend or I should say a best friend that could have sex. Not even a girlfriend. So you need not to be worried about me. I should just be the same.

You never listens to me. Whenever I tell you things, you always ignored. Always telling me anything. Then walked off. Leaving me alone behind. Yes, it's not the first time. I really can't remember when was the first time. It's been too many times alr. I couldn't recall at all. All I could recall was just us quarreling in the public, you slapping me, yelling and shouting at me in the public. I really hate those time. I hate those times when we quarreled on the streets. Me trying to run away but it doesn't seems to work. Everything was fine during our honeymoon period. Everything just started because of a msg, just one single msg.

Maybe I didn't tell you, before you asked me to be together with you, I alr had someone I like in mind. They knows it. But somehow, i have abit of feelings towards you also. So when you asked me to be together with you, I thought it twice. Remember you asked me a few times? The first time was at the staircase opposite my blk? After that I told you, I want to think about it, give me a few days time? I really don't know if it's right for me to accept you at that time. They asked me to give it a try, if it doesn't work it out, at least I tried. I didn't tell you my answer immediately. I only said yes when you asked me again. And I told you I will try. I tried, we're all happy at that time, but it doesn't seems to work out for me. I didn't say anything. I don't want to disappoint you. I didn't know that msg will ended ourselves like this. I saw how you got angry and jealous, the first time I'm being yelled and scolded at orchard road along the streets. The first time ever I hurted myself. Ever since then. We're quarreling almost every other day. I don't recall what we're quarreling about. Could you? All I could recall was once I saw your mail, you told WeiQi that you miss her, you wish that you and her could get back to what you guys were at that time. This is when we started to drift apart again. That time was me, now it was you. The gap and quarrels between us getting bigger and bigger. Slowly, as time passed, we started to quarrel almost everyday, over small matters and big matters. I don't remember when I started stop trying to save this r/s. I couldn't remember when was the first time I fought back. And when time passed, none of us started to save this r/s. and we ended up in this stage. Stage 7 of a r/s, break up.

Tonight the sky is so clear, so many stars. So bright shinning on the sky. It's been so long that I haven't see stars like this before. The wind that is blowing , the salty smell that I'm breathing in. The tears that is rolling down whenever you replied me. You didn't want to explain anything/say anything.

It's time for us to really separate. It's time for me to stop bothering you. I've given you too much trouble. It's time to stop all these trouble for you. From now onwards, you no need to be worried for me. No need to tolerate my nonsenses and ridiculous request. Maybe this will make you more happier, I guess? Thanks for leaving me so many happy memories. Really. Thanks. I will keep them in my heart. :') it's really time for me to let go and forget all these. Since you have alr let go and forgotten all these, it's time for me to do so now.

You won't care if I cry. You will only scold me if I cry. I want to be strong but I just can't. What can I do to forget this pain? ;'(

All along, the person you like was peijun, you can deny. But what you say to her cannot be denied. It's the first time i heard you asking people to take photo with you. First time. You didn't asked to take photo with me that time. I know even I ask you, you won't admit. But I rather you tell me who is that girl that me finding it out myself. She's prettier than me, cuter than me. The way she talked to you is also different. The way you talked to her is also different. You talked to her like she's your girlfriend and you're coaxing her. I'm giving up. I will never win her. I lost totally.

I did something silly today. For the sake of wanting myself not to forget the one that you like is no longer me, I forced myself to quarrel with you. You said the one you like is not Angela. I've been thinking, is it liqi? Peijun? Or weileng? I really wish to know who is that girl that made you fall in love with her. Who is the 幸福 girl? I feel so silly to made that card for you, that I thought you will tell me a word of thanks or give me a hug or something. But I'm wrong. You have a lot of things to talk to those girls but you will never find a topic to talk to me. This really made me feel like giving up. I'm so silly till I purposely took bus from outram park, just to hope that I will see you at Stevens road waiting for the bus which I know it's impossible. Because you can take mrt rather than taking bus. I'm so silly till I wanted to wait outside your base for you a lot of times. Just to see you. But I know if I really do that, you will be angry. You said, you never like Angela, I've gotten it wrongly. You like the card I gave you. Maybe ever since that time you should just made me hate you by kissing or hugging another girl infront of me, then I won't keep thinking that we still have chance of getting back together?

I really don't know what you're thinking now. Your feelings towards me, or the girl you like. When I'm at your house, I still feel like I'm your girlfriend. But once I left your house, I feel that we're strangers. Especially when you're with your friends. We can hold hands, we could hug, we could kiss and do all kinds of things like what we do when we're together when we're alone together. It will all changes when we left each other. I don't understand why.

我可以在你，我的朋友，我的家人面前假装没事。可是我骗的了你们，骗不了自己。我骗不了自己，我已经把你给放下。我骗不了我自己我还是喜欢你。我根骗不了我自己，我担心你，吃醋，都是因为我爱你。可是这些根本不能改变什么。它不能改变你已经不再喜欢我，不再爱我的事实。

今天我一个人走回家时，我想了好多。我回想起，那时候我们一起走回家。一起手牵手逛街，看电影，约会。手牵手送我回家。我放学你来学校接我，帮我背书包。在你家过夜时，我睡着了，你会帮我盖被，会哄我睡觉。还有好多好多。

现在这么都变了。你不再需要我的关心，不再需要我在你身边。现在你真的有的朋友就是你的一切。我已经不在出现在你的朋友的排行榜。对你来说我有没有找你，你根本不会在乎。就算我告诉你我永远都不会找你，你连留我的话都没说。

我的心好痛！真的好痛！就算我告诉你，我不想你不理我。你也不会哄回我。

I miss all these. :'(

I've left with one more day of working day! Yippee. But you doesn't seems to be happy for me. Maybe you have a lot of things to be bother with bah. If you could treat me like how you treated them, how good will it be? But I know it's impossible. You won't treat me like how you treat them. You used to let me fetch you from work. But now? No matter what I say, you don't let me go. It's just telling me, you don't want to let your friends know you're contacting with me. Even your working mates.

I don't know what happened to you. In the afternoon you was okay, nothing happened. Then everything changes in the evening. I don't know what makes you like that. Is it because that girl you like is zhijie's girlfriend? Or is it that, you want to be with that girl but you can't? Or is it that ZhiJie knows that you like her and yet he went to ask her to be his girlfriend? That's why your temper came back? I don't know. I don't know what makes you like this now. I don't dare to call you, I just want to hear your voice. You said we're friends, but why when Zhixian is not in good mood, you went to acc him? Me and him is both your friend. Is it because that girl is there, you want to see her? Or is it because I'm your ex-girlfriend that you don't wish to have any relationship with me anymore, not even good friends? When you scold me over the phone when I kept texting you, it seems like you're with your girlfriend and I'm irritating to you. I don't know the truth. You won't let me know the truth. You can be nice to me at this moment, but everything can change the other second. :'( I can't catch up with your pace.

You asked me to wait, okay I wait. But in the end? Even that abit of feelings is gone.

I hate myself why should I think so highly of myself that I could go visiting with you during cny. Your family doesn't like me. How would they let me go? Maybe you didn't want me to go also, maybe you didn't fight for the chance for me till the end. You will only throw temper at me when I don't even know a single thing. You let me hope so much, but ended up telling me a bad news. How am I suppose to react? :'(

Are you blaming me for lodging at my friend's place instead of my own? You just concern if my friend was a guy anot. You're just concern if we did something we're not suppose to do. Right? We're not as dirty as you think. Friends are friends. Just pure friends. We don't do what we are not suppose to do. You got no right to doubt me. You're the one that chase me away, you're the one that wanted to break up. Now what? Trying to concern for me? You said so clearly you don't want me as your girlfriend, then now doing these to me? Making me have hope. So should I just believe I have chance or just ignored your actions? You didn't want to say clearly at all. All you did was, telling me you don't want to talk. Then what you expect me to do?

Fml seriously. What the hell is wrong with my life? People around me ignoring me. You too. Everyday waiting for your msg, but nothing comes. Waited for you to say meet me but nothing comes. I'm always the one waiting ever since we ended. You didn't care at all. I feel so miserable you ignoring me. :(

I've really made up my mind. I should just initiate to end all these. No matter how much I try to talk peacefully with you. You will just ended up shouting and quarreling with me. We're always quarreling over the same old matter, whether is it Zhixian or you didn't reply my text. Same old thing. You never put yourself in my shoes that I'm worried. Maybe you won't care anymore, because to you, I'm only a friend or I should say a best friend that could have sex. Not even a girlfriend. So you need not to be worried about me. I should just be the same.

You never listens to me. Whenever I tell you things, you always ignored. Always telling me anything. Then walked off. Leaving me alone behind. Yes, it's not the first time. I really can't remember when was the first time. It's been too many times alr. I couldn't recall at all. All I could recall was just us quarreling in the public, you slapping me, yelling and shouting at me in the public. I really hate those time. I hate those times when we quarreled on the streets. Me trying to run away but it doesn't seems to work. Everything was fine during our honeymoon period. Everything just started because of a msg, just one single msg.

Maybe I didn't tell you, before you asked me to be together with you, I alr had someone I like in mind. They knows it. But somehow, i have abit of feelings towards you also. So when you asked me to be together with you, I thought it twice. Remember you asked me a few times? The first time was at the staircase opposite my blk? After that I told you, I want to think about it, give me a few days time? I really don't know if it's right for me to accept you at that time. They asked me to give it a try, if it doesn't work it out, at least I tried. I didn't tell you my answer immediately. I only said yes when you asked me again. And I told you I will try. I tried, we're all happy at that time, but it doesn't seems to work out for me. I didn't say anything. I don't want to disappoint you. I didn't know that msg will ended ourselves like this. I saw how you got angry and jealous, the first time I'm being yelled and scolded at orchard road along the streets. The first time ever I hurted myself. Ever since then. We're quarreling almost every other day. I don't recall what we're quarreling about. Could you? All I could recall was once I saw your mail, you told WeiQi that you miss her, you wish that you and her could get back to what you guys were at that time. This is when we started to drift apart again. That time was me, now it was you. The gap and quarrels between us getting bigger and bigger. Slowly, as time passed, we started to quarrel almost everyday, over small matters and big matters. I don't remember when I started stop trying to save this r/s. I couldn't remember when was the first time I fought back. And when time passed, none of us started to save this r/s. and we ended up in this stage. Stage 7 of a r/s, break up.

Tonight the sky is so clear, so many stars. So bright shinning on the sky. It's been so long that I haven't see stars like this before. The wind that is blowing , the salty smell that I'm breathing in. The tears that is rolling down whenever you replied me. You didn't want to explain anything/say anything.

It's time for us to really separate. It's time for me to stop bothering you. I've given you too much trouble. It's time to stop all these trouble for you. From now onwards, you no need to be worried for me. No need to tolerate my nonsenses and ridiculous request. Maybe this will make you more happier, I guess? Thanks for leaving me so many happy memories. Really. Thanks. I will keep them in my heart. :') it's really time for me to let go and forget all these. Since you have alr let go and forgotten all these, it's time for me to do so now.

You won't care if I cry. You will only scold me if I cry. I want to be strong but I just can't. What can I do to forget this pain? ;'(

All along, the person you like was peijun, you can deny. But what you say to her cannot be denied. It's the first time i heard you asking people to take photo with you. First time. You didn't asked to take photo with me that time. I know even I ask you, you won't admit. But I rather you tell me who is that girl that me finding it out myself. She's prettier than me, cuter than me. The way she talked to you is also different. The way you talked to her is also different. You talked to her like she's your girlfriend and you're coaxing her. I'm giving up. I will never win her. I lost totally.

I did something silly today. For the sake of wanting myself not to forget the one that you like is no longer me, I forced myself to quarrel with you. You said the one you like is not Angela. I've been thinking, is it liqi? Peijun? Or weileng? I really wish to know who is that girl that made you fall in love with her. Who is the 幸福 girl? I feel so silly to made that card for you, that I thought you will tell me a word of thanks or give me a hug or something. But I'm wrong. You have a lot of things to talk to those girls but you will never find a topic to talk to me. This really made me feel like giving up. I'm so silly till I purposely took bus from outram park, just to hope that I will see you at Stevens road waiting for the bus which I know it's impossible. Because you can take mrt rather than taking bus. I'm so silly till I wanted to wait outside your base for you a lot of times. Just to see you. But I know if I really do that, you will be angry. You said, you never like Angela, I've gotten it wrongly. You like the card I gave you. Maybe ever since that time you should just made me hate you by kissing or hugging another girl infront of me, then I won't keep thinking that we still have chance of getting back together?

I really don't know what you're thinking now. Your feelings towards me, or the girl you like. When I'm at your house, I still feel like I'm your girlfriend. But once I left your house, I feel that we're strangers. Especially when you're with your friends. We can hold hands, we could hug, we could kiss and do all kinds of things like what we do when we're together when we're alone together. It will all changes when we left each other. I don't understand why.

我可以在你，我的朋友，我的家人面前假装没事。可是我骗的了你们，骗不了自己。我骗不了自己，我已经把你给放下。我骗不了我自己我还是喜欢你。我根骗不了我自己，我担心你，吃醋，都是因为我爱你。可是这些根本不能改变什么。它不能改变你已经不再喜欢我，不再爱我的事实。

今天我一个人走回家时，我想了好多。我回想起，那时候我们一起走回家。一起手牵手逛街，看电影，约会。手牵手送我回家。我放学你来学校接我，帮我背书包。在你家过夜时，我睡着了，你会帮我盖被，会哄我睡觉。还有好多好多。

现在这么都变了。你不再需要我的关心，不再需要我在你身边。现在你真的有的朋友就是你的一切。我已经不在出现在你的朋友的排行榜。对你来说我有没有找你，你根本不会在乎。就算我告诉你我永远都不会找你，你连留我的话都没说。

我的心好痛！真的好痛！就算我告诉你，我不想你不理我。你也不会哄回我。

I miss all these. :'(

I've left with one more day of working day! Yippee. But you doesn't seems to be happy for me. Maybe you have a lot of things to be bother with bah. If you could treat me like how you treated them, how good will it be? But I know it's impossible. You won't treat me like how you treat them. You used to let me fetch you from work. But now? No matter what I say, you don't let me go. It's just telling me, you don't want to let your friends know you're contacting with me. Even your working mates.

I don't know what happened to you. In the afternoon you was okay, nothing happened. Then everything changes in the evening. I don't know what makes you like that. Is it because that girl you like is zhijie's girlfriend? Or is it that, you want to be with that girl but you can't? Or is it that ZhiJie knows that you like her and yet he went to ask her to be his girlfriend? That's why your temper came back? I don't know. I don't know what makes you like this now. I don't dare to call you, I just want to hear your voice. You said we're friends, but why when Zhixian is not in good mood, you went to acc him? Me and him is both your friend. Is it because that girl is there, you want to see her? Or is it because I'm your ex-girlfriend that you don't wish to have any relationship with me anymore, not even good friends? When you scold me over the phone when I kept texting you, it seems like you're with your girlfriend and I'm irritating to you. I don't know the truth. You won't let me know the truth. You can be nice to me at this moment, but everything can change the other second. :'( I can't catch up with your pace.

You asked me to wait, okay I wait. But in the end? Even that abit of feelings is gone.

I hate myself why should I think so highly of myself that I could go visiting with you during cny. Your family doesn't like me. How would they let me go? Maybe you didn't want me to go also, maybe you didn't fight for the chance for me till the end. You will only throw temper at me when I don't even know a single thing. You let me hope so much, but ended up telling me a bad news. How am I suppose to react? :'(

Are you blaming me for lodging at my friend's place instead of my own? You just concern if my friend was a guy anot. You're just concern if we did something we're not suppose to do. Right? We're not as dirty as you think. Friends are friends. Just pure friends. We don't do what we are not suppose to do. You got no right to doubt me. You're the one that chase me away, you're the one that wanted to break up. Now what? Trying to concern for me? You said so clearly you don't want me as your girlfriend, then now doing these to me? Making me have hope. So should I just believe I have chance or just ignored your actions? You didn't want to say clearly at all. All you did was, telling me you don't want to talk. Then what you expect me to do?

Fml seriously. What the hell is wrong with my life? People around me ignoring me. You too. Everyday waiting for your msg, but nothing comes. Waited for you to say meet me but nothing comes. I'm always the one waiting ever since we ended. You didn't care at all. I feel so miserable you ignoring me. :(