Written at Friday, September 16, 2011 | back to top
4th sweet happenings without him <3
Hais. Feeling so down this few days. Felt that so many things isn't under my control. I had been crying for so many days. But all I can do is only cry. Nothing else. I know it's tough inside, but I'm tough outside too. Every day I need to see different things, do different things, face different things. I'm not that strong as we both think. Even when you see me happy in the outside, I'm the opposite in the inside. No one understands how I feel, even those that had gone through what I'm having now. But they are being treated differently as compared to me. They didn't go through what I have gone through. Hence, they won't understand. I almost feel like giving up.
Still left with one week of attachment. After that one week, what should I do? Will I be able to work every weekdays? I don't know. How am I going to go through this 3 weeks? After 3 weeks then I will be able to go school. Then I will have my friends, I won't be alone. Next, I'm worried for my results. What if I need re-test? How will I have the mood to study? Hais.
Written at Friday, September 16, 2011 | back to top
4th sweet happenings without him <3
Hais. Feeling so down this few days. Felt that so many things isn't under my control. I had been crying for so many days. But all I can do is only cry. Nothing else. I know it's tough inside, but I'm tough outside too. Every day I need to see different things, do different things, face different things. I'm not that strong as we both think. Even when you see me happy in the outside, I'm the opposite in the inside. No one understands how I feel, even those that had gone through what I'm having now. But they are being treated differently as compared to me. They didn't go through what I have gone through. Hence, they won't understand. I almost feel like giving up.
Still left with one week of attachment. After that one week, what should I do? Will I be able to work every weekdays? I don't know. How am I going to go through this 3 weeks? After 3 weeks then I will be able to go school. Then I will have my friends, I won't be alone. Next, I'm worried for my results. What if I need re-test? How will I have the mood to study? Hais.
Hi! :) I am just a silly girl that wants everyone to dote and love :D
Alicia; ShiQi ♥
