I really feel like crying. Whenever I checked my mail, it will just bring me back to what happened. The same old thing again. If I didn't put myself so deep inside, maybe I won't be suffering that time and now.

This evening, all the unhappy memories just flashed back in my mind. I don't know why. Every thing is like watching a movie flashing out on the projector inside my mind. What happened 2 and a half years back cannot be deleted. It will still be there no matter how hard I try to delete it, format my mind. The computer inside me just forbidden me to do that. I had no one to turn to. Even my closest friends or even my boyfriend. All I could do is running away. Running away from the truth, the fact. And even running away from those people involved. I just hoped that one day I could just lose my memories and keep those I wanted.

5th - 7th sweet happenings without him <3


HAHA! Didn't have time to update my blog these few days. Too tired alr. Everyday is just attachment, work, attachment and work. HAHA. Left with 4 days to attachment. Hope attachment faster finish!! :D


Hais. Tomorrow results coming out liao. :( #saddieme! So nervous and scared that will fail alot of subjects. :(( diedie!!! Hope can pass all!! PRAYYYYYY HARDDDDDD!

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4th sweet happenings without him <3


Hais. Feeling so down this few days. Felt that so many things isn't under my control. I had been crying for so many days. But all I can do is only cry. Nothing else. I know it's tough inside, but I'm tough outside too. Every day I need to see different things, do different things, face different things. I'm not that strong as we both think. Even when you see me happy in the outside, I'm the opposite in the inside. No one understands how I feel, even those that had gone through what I'm having now. But they are being treated differently as compared to me. They didn't go through what I have gone through. Hence, they won't understand. I almost feel like giving up.


Still left with one week of attachment. After that one week, what should I do? Will I be able to work every weekdays? I don't know. How am I going to go through this 3 weeks? After 3 weeks then I will be able to go school. Then I will have my friends, I won't be alone. Next, I'm worried for my results. What if I need re-test? How will I have the mood to study? Hais.

3rd sweet happenings without him <3


Just reached home from work. :( so tired. But FUN!! :)) I <3 the babies there! So cute. But some their parents are just very fcukup! They just don't understand what we are doing at all! So unhappy with our service, then go back to your ideal hospital. Why come here?! Idiot! HAHA! This kind of parent is so fcukup. The baby is hospitalised, you threw the baby to the grandma, now you come and complained saying we didn't fed the baby. IDIOT!

HAHA. Enough of those nonsenses! :D Waited for the whole day alr, but still didn't receive any thing from him. His phone is still off. Hais. @2230hrs will be his lights out. It's 2221hrs now alr. But no msg, no call. He promised me to call me tonight, but didn't recieved any calls. Also don't know whether is he asleep or still busy. Hais. After awhile more, I'm going to bed alr. Too tired, hope he will call. But I'm afraid that he won't. :((

Labels: 3rd sweet happenings

I really feel like crying. Whenever I checked my mail, it will just bring me back to what happened. The same old thing again. If I didn't put myself so deep inside, maybe I won't be suffering that time and now.

This evening, all the unhappy memories just flashed back in my mind. I don't know why. Every thing is like watching a movie flashing out on the projector inside my mind. What happened 2 and a half years back cannot be deleted. It will still be there no matter how hard I try to delete it, format my mind. The computer inside me just forbidden me to do that. I had no one to turn to. Even my closest friends or even my boyfriend. All I could do is running away. Running away from the truth, the fact. And even running away from those people involved. I just hoped that one day I could just lose my memories and keep those I wanted.

5th - 7th sweet happenings without him <3


HAHA! Didn't have time to update my blog these few days. Too tired alr. Everyday is just attachment, work, attachment and work. HAHA. Left with 4 days to attachment. Hope attachment faster finish!! :D


Hais. Tomorrow results coming out liao. :( #saddieme! So nervous and scared that will fail alot of subjects. :(( diedie!!! Hope can pass all!! PRAYYYYYY HARDDDDDD!

Labels: 5th-7th sweet happenings

4th sweet happenings without him <3


Hais. Feeling so down this few days. Felt that so many things isn't under my control. I had been crying for so many days. But all I can do is only cry. Nothing else. I know it's tough inside, but I'm tough outside too. Every day I need to see different things, do different things, face different things. I'm not that strong as we both think. Even when you see me happy in the outside, I'm the opposite in the inside. No one understands how I feel, even those that had gone through what I'm having now. But they are being treated differently as compared to me. They didn't go through what I have gone through. Hence, they won't understand. I almost feel like giving up.


Still left with one week of attachment. After that one week, what should I do? Will I be able to work every weekdays? I don't know. How am I going to go through this 3 weeks? After 3 weeks then I will be able to go school. Then I will have my friends, I won't be alone. Next, I'm worried for my results. What if I need re-test? How will I have the mood to study? Hais.

3rd sweet happenings without him <3


Just reached home from work. :( so tired. But FUN!! :)) I <3 the babies there! So cute. But some their parents are just very fcukup! They just don't understand what we are doing at all! So unhappy with our service, then go back to your ideal hospital. Why come here?! Idiot! HAHA! This kind of parent is so fcukup. The baby is hospitalised, you threw the baby to the grandma, now you come and complained saying we didn't fed the baby. IDIOT!

HAHA. Enough of those nonsenses! :D Waited for the whole day alr, but still didn't receive any thing from him. His phone is still off. Hais. @2230hrs will be his lights out. It's 2221hrs now alr. But no msg, no call. He promised me to call me tonight, but didn't recieved any calls. Also don't know whether is he asleep or still busy. Hais. After awhile more, I'm going to bed alr. Too tired, hope he will call. But I'm afraid that he won't. :((

Labels: 3rd sweet happenings