seriously! fcuk off! i hate every single thing in my life now! no one bothers! fcuk! cb! i am just nothing! even if i go missing no one cares! I AM STARTING TO GIVE UP, LET GO. because no one cares makes me feel more miserable! everything important is just friends, friends, friends. not girlfriend! FCUK OFF IF YOU JUST NEED A FRIEND!
i saw this from one of my friend's blog. found it super meaningful to me. or maybe it suits me.
I hate the feeling when you know you're going to cry. Your lips quiver, your heart pounds, your eyes sting. Your face clenches up, and then the tears start to fall.
You can't stop them, no matter how hard you try. And it's not little tears that slide down your cheeks, it's big tears that make your eyes red and puffy, your face tear-stained and your body heave.
You can't stop the tears, and as you lie on your bed alone, you think of what could you have possibly done to stop the pain. Stop the sufferings.
Stop this, stop what you're going through.
But there's nothing you can do, nothing anyone can say. It's the kind of tears and pain that need to be cried out, not talked out. and you know that you're hurting people you love, but you can't help it. And sometimes, you just don't care.
I know how you feel.
Believe me.
i'm always thinking, is there someone that will understand how i feel? now i know, yes, there will be. but it will never be the person i wanted. what i wanted will just turn the opposite way out. some times, i'm thinking, if everything didn't start. what will it be now? some times, one word, one sentence or even one simple action hurts me to the core! it can make me cry over it for days or even weeks. because it really hurts! i had been thinking, if i had not put in so much, will i be that hurt like now? maybe i won't. or even, i won't feel a single thing. till now, i still don't understand whether i put in so much is it right or wrong. Labels: th life i wanted?
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BABYYYYYYYYYYYYY~ IGGYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY~ HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!
he's older than me alr! hahahahahha! BIG gor gor! :P hahhahahahahahha! :) love him lots lots! :) hahaha! i had been sitting for 2 hours doing nothing?! haha! luckily i brought my laptop & my beloved classmates laughter brighten up my life! haha! Farhan's 2 ponytail, music playing, chit-chatting. haha! but we are like so scared that the teacher will come in anytime. hahah. that siewhow's voice is like so power lah! super noisy! we nearly got scolded by the teacher. lucky! if not i am going to kick his butt! hahahahahha!
omg! my stomach is like, growling?! i am super hungry lah. i hate this feeling, when you are hungry, then you are sitting down, the aircon is so cold and you wanted to pee! damn it. hahhahah.
okok. shall stop here. going home alr. :) bye peeps!
Labels: i love him alot
I really dont know how log could I last with my that little strength and energy left. I am really very tired. Tired of everything in my life. I am starting to lose faith in some things. I had a bad feeling for that. I am really tired~
Haha! this is my first post for the year! :D sorry lah. didn't have th time to post this few days. it was a busy week for me. with projects, open house & some fcukup things. the first thing i did this year round was sitting at the police post for almost 2 hours! this is how i started 2011. haha! does this indicates to me that 2011 is a bad year for me? haha. mummy told me that people says that 2011, th rabbit year, is a good year. wth! bluff people de lah! just 3rd day of 2011 I went to the police post?! spoil my year sia! haha! spoil darling's year too. hope everything will back to normal as soon as possible.
omg! i am having pain on th back, right side of my waist. bastard! so damn pain lah! irritating! hope th pain goes away tonight. tomorrow morning still need go back for open house. after that going for a date with darling at paragon. it's been so long i didn't went out with him for a date. th last time was when we went to watch Rapunzel at th grand cathay. which was around 2-3 weeks ago? so freaking long right? i also know! i also can't do anything mah. he has been working every weekdays. reach until weekends, i also don't know where to go. he doesn't want to stay at home, he go lot find his friends. i go there, i also sian. mind as well stay at home right? haha!
didn't have enough sleep this few weeks, although i just finished my 2 weeks break. th 2 weeks break like super fast? one weekend is christmas, another weekend is new year. there goes my 2 weeks break. sian ttm! thought of looking forward to th march holidays, but haing attachment for 3 weeks, left 2 weeks for me to rest. then attachment for 3 weeks again when school starts. haha! i think i am not suitable to work in those hospital settings. maybe i am just suitable to work in polyclinic! haha! from morning 8am to 5pm. haha! saturday, public holiday eve half day. sunday and public holiday off! hahahaha! i like this kind of life man! if i am at th reception is th best! haha! just sit down, pick up telephone, give queue number. haha! best lah! th best thing is i have a polyclinic at my area just 10 minutes walk away! hahahahahahah! &&& i like their uniform colour!!!! is purple! hahah! that colour is a not bad colour! hahahahah! okok! i am thinking too freaking far!
yawns~ my eyes are asking me to go to bed now so that i will have enough energy for tomorrow's open house. haha!
Labels: i ♥ my darling forever
Hi! :) I am just a silly girl that wants everyone to dote and love :D
Alicia; ShiQi ♥
