This will be the last post for this blog. All memories here shall be shut down and forgotten. While reading through this blog, those posts I found out one thing, which is unhappy memories here are more than happy memories. This wasn't what I want when I started blogging. But it doesn't matter anymore now. We had to move on in life. There's one day one of us will give up. I chose to give up. Through these few months, I've been thinking of some things that would make me stay, but all I remembered was just the first 1 month when we just got together. No quarrels nothing. Other than that, I couldn't think of anything else to make me stay. 4 years of relationship is so fragile is a glass of wine falling off the table. Cracked, and can't be fix. Even if the scattered glass can be stick back to how it was, it won't be the same as the glass before it had cracked. Some things can't be amended at all. Once broken it's considered sold. Just like my heart, once broken it can never be the same anymore. You had started a new life earlier than me. But why when I wanted to start a new life, you doesn't want to let go? Is it because you're afraid of losing a spare tyre? I really don't know and I don't wish to know. I chose to walk another path. Even if this path is not very easy to walk, I will try my best. Because at least I tried.

Labels: #last post. New life

i dont know why, what i say now, it just makes you angry. If caring will make you angry, what am i suppose to? i really dont want to make you angry. But the way you are treating me is hurting me. You're so cold towards me. Everything, dont want, no, cannot. Is this retribution? Retribution for being with someone i didnt like during that time? I dont know. I dont know why when we got back together we are quarreling everyday. All i could remember was, you promising you will come and fetch me from work, but you didnt. Then we started to quarrel about this everyday, but you just doesnt seems to care about it. Then suddenly you said breakup. No matter how i say i dont know. You dont care. You just say cant we be friends first and wait? I really thought after your case is settled, everything will go back to normal. We will get back together. But suddenly you told me you like someone else just a few days after your birthday. This is when you started to change. You're totally different. You started to treat me very cold. You started to stop talking to me. You started all the ohhokay, no, cannot, dont want to what i say.

I really dont want us to end like this. 4Years. It's not easy to forget and give up just like that. You asked me to wait, i waited. I dont want to end like this. You said you've changed. You want your own time now, you want to acc your parents, you want to have freedom, you want to do what you like. These few sentences hurted me. You said like, you didnt have freedom when we're together, you didnt have your own time, you didnt do what you like. I thought that i go cck with you acc you play arcade, LOL etc you will be happy. I didnt know that it give you no freedom, i didnt know you didnt like. I really dont know.

You said you want to clear your interview first, asked me not to make you dulan. I'm sorry if my actions or words is making you angry. But i really didnt did it on purpose. I'm afraid you will lie. I dont want to accept the fact that have left and high chance of you not coming back to me. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. Please? Come back to me can?

Those letters i gave you doesnt matters to you anymore. You didnt even notice that you have new ones or dont even bother to read them. You posted on twitter saying it's time for you to change. I hope you will change to start loving me like how it was 4 years back. But you said you like the way it is now, i wonder. Are you really happy when you're with me? Is it because you're not happy that's why you dont want to go back to how we was that time? I really dont know. :(

Labels: #i dont want to lose you

what's the point of me living in this world. there's nothing for me to remember in this world. what's the point of me saying so much things just to make myself miserable? you dont give a god damn fcuk about it. no matter how hard i try, i will never get your agreement/confirmation. you will only ignore me. i'm really tired of arguing of all these. you dont give a fcuk of it, then why should i still bother? mind as well just leave this world.

I know you didn't see my blog at all. It doesn't matter. Because from now onwards, I swear I won't text or anything. I wont remove you from facebook. But I won't view your facebook anymore. Enjoy your life and all the best.

This will be the last post for this blog. All memories here shall be shut down and forgotten. While reading through this blog, those posts I found out one thing, which is unhappy memories here are more than happy memories. This wasn't what I want when I started blogging. But it doesn't matter anymore now. We had to move on in life. There's one day one of us will give up. I chose to give up. Through these few months, I've been thinking of some things that would make me stay, but all I remembered was just the first 1 month when we just got together. No quarrels nothing. Other than that, I couldn't think of anything else to make me stay. 4 years of relationship is so fragile is a glass of wine falling off the table. Cracked, and can't be fix. Even if the scattered glass can be stick back to how it was, it won't be the same as the glass before it had cracked. Some things can't be amended at all. Once broken it's considered sold. Just like my heart, once broken it can never be the same anymore. You had started a new life earlier than me. But why when I wanted to start a new life, you doesn't want to let go? Is it because you're afraid of losing a spare tyre? I really don't know and I don't wish to know. I chose to walk another path. Even if this path is not very easy to walk, I will try my best. Because at least I tried.

Labels: #last post. New life

i dont know why, what i say now, it just makes you angry. If caring will make you angry, what am i suppose to? i really dont want to make you angry. But the way you are treating me is hurting me. You're so cold towards me. Everything, dont want, no, cannot. Is this retribution? Retribution for being with someone i didnt like during that time? I dont know. I dont know why when we got back together we are quarreling everyday. All i could remember was, you promising you will come and fetch me from work, but you didnt. Then we started to quarrel about this everyday, but you just doesnt seems to care about it. Then suddenly you said breakup. No matter how i say i dont know. You dont care. You just say cant we be friends first and wait? I really thought after your case is settled, everything will go back to normal. We will get back together. But suddenly you told me you like someone else just a few days after your birthday. This is when you started to change. You're totally different. You started to treat me very cold. You started to stop talking to me. You started all the ohhokay, no, cannot, dont want to what i say.

I really dont want us to end like this. 4Years. It's not easy to forget and give up just like that. You asked me to wait, i waited. I dont want to end like this. You said you've changed. You want your own time now, you want to acc your parents, you want to have freedom, you want to do what you like. These few sentences hurted me. You said like, you didnt have freedom when we're together, you didnt have your own time, you didnt do what you like. I thought that i go cck with you acc you play arcade, LOL etc you will be happy. I didnt know that it give you no freedom, i didnt know you didnt like. I really dont know.

You said you want to clear your interview first, asked me not to make you dulan. I'm sorry if my actions or words is making you angry. But i really didnt did it on purpose. I'm afraid you will lie. I dont want to accept the fact that have left and high chance of you not coming back to me. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. Please? Come back to me can?

Those letters i gave you doesnt matters to you anymore. You didnt even notice that you have new ones or dont even bother to read them. You posted on twitter saying it's time for you to change. I hope you will change to start loving me like how it was 4 years back. But you said you like the way it is now, i wonder. Are you really happy when you're with me? Is it because you're not happy that's why you dont want to go back to how we was that time? I really dont know. :(

Labels: #i dont want to lose you

what's the point of me living in this world. there's nothing for me to remember in this world. what's the point of me saying so much things just to make myself miserable? you dont give a god damn fcuk about it. no matter how hard i try, i will never get your agreement/confirmation. you will only ignore me. i'm really tired of arguing of all these. you dont give a fcuk of it, then why should i still bother? mind as well just leave this world.

I know you didn't see my blog at all. It doesn't matter. Because from now onwards, I swear I won't text or anything. I wont remove you from facebook. But I won't view your facebook anymore. Enjoy your life and all the best.